Going back to work after being gone for almost the whole semester was more difficult than I imagined it being. My morning routine needs polishing, and my game face definitely needs work. Garrin was having an up and down of a couple of days, and it was hard for me not to be at the hospital with him. I am so very blessed to work with the most amazing people. I absolutely love them, and I will never be able to thank them enough for their ongoing understanding and support.
After a couple of days at the office, I was ready to come back for a short visit with Garrin. He is a happy boy on a CPAP of 5, but was not quite ready to go to 4 on Thursday. The doctor indicated that we’d give him the weekend to rest and try again next week. Hopefully the extra time will help, and we can move to high flow soon, and then on to feeding.
The further we get on this journey, the harder it is for me to hide my frustration with even the slightest of setbacks, especially when I am two hours away. Then I get here, and with one look at this sweet little face, all of that frustration melts away and is replaced by gratitude for every single second we have had together, even on the most difficult of days.
“When you are angry or frustrated, what comes out? Whatever it is, it’s a good indication of what you’re made of.” ~H. Jackson Brown